Life as training- La vida como aprendizaje.

Después de tantísimo tiempo sin publicar vengo con una entrada un poco filosófica. Quiero dar las gracias a Rocío por sus comentarios, porque de no ser por ella pensaría que nadie se acuerda de este blog y quizá lo hubiera abandonado definitivamente. After a long time without posting, here I come with a little filosofic post. I want to thank Rocío for her comments; if she weren't there maybe I would have abandoned this blog for once and all.

En Málaga hay muchas flores que crecen gracias al microclima tropical. Esta flor Pacífico (hibisco) llena de gotitas tras la lluvia me pareció preciosa.

En Marzo, después de la lluvia, la primavera comenzó a florecer. No creáis que me olvidé del blog, iba por ahí haciendo fotos de flores para enseñároslas. (Tengo muchas. Me gustaría hablar alguna vez de todas las flores que crecen en los parques de Málaga.) Mi situación no era la mejor, pero la perspectiva de la primavera de algún modo me daba esperanza. Me decía: "todo va a cambiar", "ahora es el momento de probar lo que puedes hacer"... On March, after the rain, Spring began to bloom. Don't think that I forgot about the blog: I was wandering here and there taking photographs of flowers to show them to you in this blog (I have a lot. I'd like to talk about the flower which grow in Malaga gardens). Mi situation wasn't the best, but the expectations on the Spring gave me hopes somehow. I said to myself: "everything is going to change", "now is the moment for you to prove your strength"...

Siempre que uno está preocupado, y sale a dar a una vuelta, y ve el cielo azul y la estación cálida acercándose, pienso que se respira mejor. Eso es lo que me pasaba. Traté de ser positiva. En Abril, la lluvia volvió. Cada vez que la primavera se asomaba, la lluvia volvía. También en mis pequeños proyectos pasaba lo mismo. Pensaba que iba a conseguirlo... y justo entonces, me desanimaba por algo. No es fácil. Whenever you are worried, if you go out and you see the blue sky, as the warm season is coming, you'll feel that it's easier to breathe. That's what happened to me. I tried to stay positive. On April, the rain came back. Every time  the Spring showed up, the rain came back. And it was the same with my little projects. I was thinking that I could do it... and then something put me down. It's not easy.

Ver el cielo azul al comienzo de la primavera me parece como un soplo de esperanza.

Además de los problemas "profesionales", me sentía sola emocionalmente. Echaba de menos tener a alguien que me entendiera, y pensaba si alguna vez algún amigo lo había hecho. Es gracioso, porque ellos siempre me llamaban y me ayudaban, pero yo seguía estando triste.  Tampoco quería agobiarlos con mis problemas. Besides the professional problems, I was feeling lonely. I missed having someone who could just understand me, and I wondered if some of my friends had ever done it. Funny, because they always called me and helped me, but I continued being sad. I didn't want to bother them with my problems either.

Dibujé a Lili de NeWorld llevando un estilo Sweet Lolita, la moda japonesa, en primavera.

En Mayo, no me dejé desanimar del todo. Después de todo, yo tengo un "mundo nuevo". Y aunque no lo creáis, he estado todo el tiempo pensando en NeWorld. Incluso dibujé a Lili, pensé en cambiar el nombre a NextWorld, y he estado todos estos meses escribiendo. Es sólo que siempre hay alguien mucho mejor que tú. Ya sabéis: ese sentimiento de que hagas lo que hagas, no puedes hacer las cosas lo bien que te gustaría. No me siento capacitada para dibujar un manga entero, así que me puse a escribir sencillamente. Y ahora me pregunto si lo que escribo tiene algún valor como para enseñarlo... Así soy yo. Sólo tengo una cosa buena: puedo tardar años, pero no olvido mis proyectos. On May, I didn't let myself give up. After all, I have a "new world". You may not believe me, but I've been thinking about NeWorld all the time. I even drew Lili, thought of changing the name into NextWorld, and I've been writing all these months. It's just that there is always someone much better than you. You know: that feeling of "no matter what you do, you can't do things as well as you'd like". I don't feel able to draw a whole manga, so I began to write, simply. And now I wonder if what I've written is good enough to publish... That's the way I am. I only have a positive thing: it may takes me years, but I don't forget my projects.

Todas las rosas habían florecido. Todas menos yo.

Floreció hasta la última rosa, y llegó Junio. Junio es el sexto mes del año, la mitad del año. Me di cuenta de que gracias a mi esfuerzo había conseguido cosas, pero muy pequeñas. Por una parte estaba feliz, y por otra triste. Me di cuenta de que mis sueños no se iban a cumplir tan fácilmente, y que la vida que había vivido hasta ahora era muy cómoda. Me di cuenta de lo mucho que le debo a la gente que me rodea y lo poco que yo les había dado a cambio. Creo que soy una llorica mimada. Even the last rose bloomed, and June came in. June is the sixth month of the year, the half of the year. I realized that, thanks to my efforts, I had achieved some goals- very little ones. On one hand, I was happy, but on the other hand, I was sad. I realized that my dreams wouldn't turn into reality that easy, and that my life until now had been really comfortable. I realized how much I owed to the people around me, and how less I had given to them in exchange. I think I'm a spoilt cry-baby.

Un día soleado en el Lagarillo Blanco de Málaga. A pesar de las dificultades,  ¿por qué no ser feliz este verano, simplemente?

Ahora es Julio, y estoy en mitad de mi verano 2013 dándome cuenta de que aún no he ido ni un día a la playa, que he sonreído menos que ningún verano y que tengo que hacer algo. Quiero decir, algo más. Now is July, and I'm in the middle of my 2013 summer, thinking that I haven't gone to the beach a single day, knowing that I've had less laughter than ever and that I have to do something. I mean, something else.

Lilio's back... (little update)

Hello, I just wanted to come and say hello. I don't feel good if I leave this blog completely dead... 

I've been doing lots of thing -everything but blogging. I've tried to learn English (again), I've tried to workout... Yes, I've tried.

A couple of days ago I picked my bycicle and I went for a long ride through the city... Weather is really crazy in this season of the year, so I got the chance when I saw that sky was blue and the Sun shone more or less bright. One day, I even found out that there was snow near my house... I got shocked, I have never seen such thing in Málaga. Later my friends told me that it wasn't snow, but hail.

I really hate winter, I can't help it. So I cheer up when I see the Sun out...

Spring is wonderful! I just can't wait for it...
Another thing I like is k-fashion. Yes, Korean fashion. Some things are too flashy for my taste, but others I find them really original and cool. For the moment, I only have little accessories which could fit in the style... This is part of what I wore yesterday.

My star sneakers and my star bracelet... And that's all! See you!

Happy New Year 2013 and the Three Kings

 In New Year Eve, I think that I got carried out by Rihanna's hair style, and nothing of what I expected turned out well. But it was OK, because my New Year Eve was very familiar.

Expectations:

Reality:  No, better not to share that pic...........

Hahahaha!! How funny. But it's OK, it was fun to do it. And the next time, I hope it will turn out better.

Now, the holiday hasn`t finished yet, because we are waiting for the Three Kings. Have you written your letter already? I haven't. But I dont have a wishlist right now. Not material things.

Something I love about the Three Kings is that we eat a special cake on January 6th. The Three Kings cake! I don't know if there is a tradition like this in other countries. I`m looking forwards to that day only because of the cake xD.